oh yeh, thanks yenjai and kok(thanks for the correction..not calling u piglet k..haha) for the previous 2 comments!

traineeship in alice springs? well, i've sent in my email of rejection yesterday!! Before that i was so stressed up and wound up..to a point that i get headache..for me that's bad already! 
i tried to study and i cant even concentrate on anything.

I figured, God is the prince of peace, i've prayed hard and finally i came to a decision to reject. Boy, am i glad and relieved after that! Never felt so light before. The peace is back after that! Im sure i've made the correct decision 'tho im back to square 1, searching again for traineeship!;) it's all good! probably this is a test for me so that i can differentiate which upcoming opportunity is mine!! lolz..!

feeling a bit emo lately plus so many things to think about, traineeship next year, PR, supp test, personal issues, feel like flying home even if it's only for a day or two.....ahh, probably PMS! *hmph*