since the first day of uni, i've felt this emptiness in me..it's like...sth is wrong..sth is missing..and im confused...i was not sure what went wrong..jz felt im so 'low'..and transparent..less passionate bout God and things around me..doubting His existence..yes..even after all the msgs by sy rogers!!dont know why..the thought of what if im serving a non-existent God!? I know He is there..but i just cant seem to connect to Him!!But, today I got a love msg fr my Father in heaven! our prayers last for 2 hrs..initially, i was tired! i felt sleepy..but..'bertahan'...then when ling prayed sth bout finding our position in prayer group and also about being transparent and open to each other..with us being sensitive to each other's need and helping each other to grow, im recharged and filled! I felt loved!! i jz felt the peace, with God trying to tell me that im loved and cared for by Him and i need to humble myself and let Him take control!serve with humility too! i realised ive been doing things without putting Him in focus! i have my quiet time, but without much significance! cant seem to absorb the supposedly life-changing words! But, just with that seemingly simple reassurance from Him, i felt recharged with new desire/motivation and passion to go on..to live a life that He wants me to, which i will not turn back with regret! i hv my own race to run, it doesnt matter what others will think and how other people perceive you (like/dislike) i realise..i matter to Him, He is my daddy and friend! with new strength and focus, i shall proceed on, living an influential and fulfilling life for my Father as my goal! in the end, it's between Him and me...