hmm..about the piercing? after much consideration..bout the pros and cons..dont think so i will do that..my parents will jz pengsanla..but the desire is still there though! haha..!

well, the first international ministry of my church had jz been launched at uni adelaide with altered frequency performing at the opening ceremony..sth like that..!their songs were great!! i like running back to you! cass!! this reminded me of their visit to the oil town at dewan suarah!! hahahha!! that nit, some of my gal frens and i did a hip hop dance.. my part was so minor..but indeed i was scared!!! nervous breakdown!! for me, this has always been a challenge for me..sth like my phobia! never like talking or performing in front of a crowd! i'll rather die man..u know what i mean!

so, i was totally blank before the dance, forgot steps! i could rmbr so well the night before! anyway, i felt so much BETTER after our praying session before the performance..! i could even smile at the audience! i didnt think i dance that well, but yeh..the adrenaline rush after that...couldnt make me sit still! it's like a huge stone being lifted off from me! jumped around...hyper when the altered freq led us into praise and worship!

quite excited though being able to serve as a permanent usherer in the ministry! looking forward to the upcoming events and meetings!

hmmm, last week, i fell sick!!!!! down with sorethroat and almost severe headache..'ponteng' one day class! slept for 2 days..haha geez, wouldnt want to fall sick again, during this weak time, all the negative feelings were overwhelming..felt like dying..sth like a physical and spiritual attack..thinking of 'bukan-bukan' stuffs, worrying bout my test and feeling disconnected fr God! prayed lots..and hold on!

yesterday's msg was incredible..!!! about a seed and the environment, which is the soil, though we have so much potential in us, but if we are not the in correct environment, we cant grow, a seed cant grow on its own! somehow, forgiveness is related in certain parts! And it's like..*click*..there you go! that's my problem!!not forgiving completely and being judgmental! because of certain happenings, i thought i have forgiven but not completely, therefore i ended up feeling disconnected from God and feeling bitter..! been trying to figure that out when i was almost sick and when i was sick! since yesterday after i confessed, i felt so liberated and when i see my frens who had unintentionally hurt me, i felt love towards them!! How good is God! He showed so much undeserved mercy towards me, how can i not be merciful to other people or rather, be so critical and judgemental! though the word forgive sounds easy, to actually do it, it's hard! but after doing it, haha feel like soaring..like the eagle? dont really know how to decribe it!
Now, i felt recharged spiritually, excited to discover his purpose and lessons for me each and everyday!

test today? well, hopefully i can passs!!! then again, Father, i commit my test unto Your hands, i did my best and You will do the rest!

This week is a happening week for some of my frens and i! it's the bU conference for women week, with darlene czech!!!!from thurs nit to sat..thurs nit is the fashion show.. hahhaa....we are serving in ushering! dress code: formal and a little over the top!!! arghh! gonna buy some accesories soon..good thing i brought my heels here..! cant wait for the encounter with God in that conference..phew..women from all over australia coming together..kinda intimidating..haha!